this is an extremely vulnerable post, but i have no doubt that if im experiencing this, I’m not alone. as ive been more on my fitness journey, I’ve seen so many changes in my body; things that are incredible like strength, endurance, and my muscles are more noticeable, and my mental health has never felt clearer. but while experiencing those joys, im also trying to unlearn that being “fit” isn’t always my “smallest” and that some changes that are unexpected (that i would normally punish or ridicule myself for like going up in clothing sizes) are actually an amazing growth. on a deeper level, i judge myself for my biker shorts getting too tight on my quads and my sports bras not fitting my shoulder blades. i’m learning to accept that not only with fitness but GETTING OLDER, these changes should be natural. but they feel nothing of the sort. so i simply just want to remind you (like im reminding myself) that growth in any form is a good thing. the smaller you are is not a direct correlation to how valued you are. clothes are meant to fit you, not you fitting into clothes. and changing sizes isn’t a negative thing but instead just life. and normal. and we need to remind ourselves that we are not just bodies but rather all the incredible functions and things that we do with them. LOOK HOW FAR THIS TEMPLE HAS TAKEN US! you do amazing things every day that can be taken for granted. and the size of clothes shouldn’t diminish that feeling.
reflecting on the last 5 years of sharing life with you. and no matter what, whether this is our first time meeting or last time saying hello…i’m so happy you’re here :) if anything vanishes, see u on ig & yt still sharing sunshine.